Tethers and Navigation

One year ago, I was rushed to the emergency room directly from a doctor's appointment. This was not my first hospitalization and I reckon it won't be my last, but it was different in that the reality of my mortality and the loneliness accompanied by being in a space where visitors weren't allowed because of... Continue Reading →

In The Dark

It’s nine in the morning; I’ve been awake for several hours, moving through my daily routine which I’ve talked about before—the one with stretches, coffee, sitting with the cat and the dog, watching the window—but now, the sun’s fully up and bundled up like it’s January, I head out into the garden that I guess... Continue Reading →

Bat Signal

Not too long ago, someone threw an insult at me for no reason. It wasn’t the worst thing someone has said to me, but it was certainly unwarranted and childish. I tell you this because for the first time in my life, my immediate thought after the insult was, “what’s wrong with them?” and not,... Continue Reading →

Do-Nothingness

It’s mid afternoon on a relieving fall day here in East Texas. These rare, low humidity days are celebration-worthy and all the critters on the farm agree—them with their zoomies all over the yard. It’s precious. I’d run around with them too, if I could. I’m out in the pasture with my donkeys, three. I... Continue Reading →

Win

Today, I nailed a presentation at work. But I felt like shit.Because autoimmune disease,Because trauma attacks endlessly,Because my head ached so bad that the sound of my own voice felt like breaking glass in my brain,Because my feelings were shit and didn't matter,Because imposter syndrome,Because anxiety experiences the worst so it won't hurt so bad... Continue Reading →

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